Stars

Shining stars are scattered in the sky
all are lit, once dull now bright
lying on a bench I look at them
they all are desirable like glories and fame
night is dark, mild breezes blowing
moon is lit world seems green
staring at the stars I felt my desire
to catch the brightest and feel the pleasure
I look at one it becomes the brightest
as I see another it becomes the dullest
i become confused as the starts play tricks
i look all at once to see which one is more lit
all seems lit all are bright
all are equal all give lights
as I look from my heart
one star dazzled all were far
all are precious all are equal
it is your heart that makes one so special

Heading towards IIT Bombay

Hi all,

This particular blog post is dedicated to all those who have been blessed to get admitted in IIT Bombay. Today, I would like to share the story of a young boy, just like you, who was lucky enough to catch a train and enter CSE department of IIT Bombay.

15th March, 2009, the morning started with tremendous pain and overnight agony of gastric ulcer. A young boy almost dying in the bed, helpless. Cruel creator is cursing him for each and every moment. It was 7am in the morning, and suddenly the boy felt some relief from the pain, and slept for a while. A couple of hours latter, he woke up. It was 9:30am, He saw the watch, the pain has started again. He felt sorry again. Just for a moment he remembered the result is perhaps out, but who cares. He knew he has no interest to study any further. He needs money, hell lot of money and he got a job. It was just for the sake of his parents. He is not interested in masters. Someone told him someday, it is the losers who fails to secure a job do a masters degree, and he meant it for his lifetime.

Obviously, he tried to sleep again, but something is going wrong. Someone is becoming curious. what is the result? 'HOPE' is the culprit, 'Desire' is the devil. I still don't understand why did he feel curiosity? He would never prefer a masters degree. Why? May be because he had some illogical desire, a desire to got been beaten, a desire to beat 'em all anywhere, everywhere. Or is it a sweet revenge. The past year experience was too bad. He felt sorry, mood was very off when he was informed that more than 2k students had beaten him. He was crazy. crazy to achieve success. Success is something like a beverage, the more you taste it, more thirsty you become. You look for higher quality. It is never meant to quench you thirst, it is meant to make you addicted.

It is paining still, and he opened his laptop, got the internet connection. Opened the site and entered his roll. Oops, the internet is very slow? no ! The server is overloaded. Lots of requests coming from all over the country. All are equally rather more curious about their score. He tried once again, and once again. He got the response in the fourth attempt. Here it comes and Bingo!

The rest was different story altogether. The electronic device named laptop had a liquid crystal display screen and it bombarding some particles and all these physics show the all india rank of 23. The boy cross checked the details. Is it someone else? No! Here it comes, the smile in his face. He felt like nothing. He could not compare this feeling. He jumped, ran to his mother, and jumped again. Shouted, mom I got 23 all india rank, can u believe that!

That was the day and these were the moments he was meant for. Life has been cruel to that boy, but he is blessed. Blessed like hell. He can now see the proud in his parent's face, the joy his brother has now. The greatest pleasure comes when you realized you are the cause of others happiness. The boy was smiling, and it was prevailing the whole house. The rest of the day he dare not refresh that webpage which displayed the rank. Even if it is a dream, he don't want to woke up. Many dreams have been realized which could have been reality, if he had not woke up in the morning.

রঙে রঙীন

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আশেপাশে এত সুখ, খুশির প্লাবণ
সাতরঙা সূর বেঁধে গা না আজ গান
রঙের খেলাতে তোরা, মাতা মনপ্রাণ

My First Reaction to this World of Show offs

Hi,

Things have changed from my last blog post. I had left IIT Bombay, my friends and academic life. And when I look behind, I see them behind my eyesight. My current residential address says it is East Delhi, a place for Jains and Vegetarian people. I am now an employee of Opera Solutions, to elaborate it is Opera Solutions Management Consultancy Private Limited. Things are here quite different from the academic world. People talk about show offs, management skills and business development. People around me are way smarter and prompt in soft skills. I feel myself too much incompetent here, I am struggling here.

Sometimes, I think I not at all fit in this world. I am a simple guy, very very simple guy, who smiles with ecstasy and crying like a child, complains about every other things, loves everyone from heart. Not at all good at pretending and lying. Likes to stay with good people, likes to behave like a good people. Who can care you more than anyone, who can irritate you more than anyone, who shouts at you for every mistakes u do, who guides you in every crossing of your life, who is just too innocent to be matured and matlabi...

Things have been nice to me too in my life and I am happy for those. I have heard someone suggesting me to do good work and forget the rest. I give up very easily and still I have come back many times in life. All I want a person, a friend, a companion to share all my feelings, whom I can trust like hell while fighting with the rest of the world. I am alone these days. very much alone, none to share my problems, none to cry in front of.

Things have gone wrong till now, but I won't quit. I might leave this job but not before I CRACK IT. This is a challenge to me. It is time to prove myself that my spirit is still with me. I do respect myself for whatever I have fought with in life and I am proud of it. I will make it happen once again and it will always be in my own style. Deliver as much as you can. Beat yourself. Be your own competitor. Forget what I like or not, its a challenge and I have to win this race. Its time to bring up the self-respect once again. I am getting too pessimistic, but somehow in the course of so much downfall, I find my back on the wall, so I feel myself motivated to take the aggressive stance and attack the problem from the front.

This is it.

Some notes on Spirituality

Life at its heart is quite difficult to understand. Staying in my room in Hostel 12 I use to think about the true meaning of life and about the great cause I have been here for. Like anyone else I am too not assure about the real objectives of my life. Other seems ignorant about the greatest cause and enjoying the moments with the materialistic pleasures while discovering different logics against spirituality. Whereas, I believe spirituality which is beyond the axioms of human created axioms which meant only to explain the observables. Spirituality has to be felt in ones heart, in ones very soul. Only then he/she can feel the divinity in him/herself.

One way of understanding the divinity of spirituality I think is listening to music. Not the pop or similar genre music which by birth is meant to aggravate your soul and provoke the sadness in our soul. Rather the music which calms down our soul and lead us to the divine power, brings tranquility around our mind and reveal the hidden divine sacred part of our own mind. Like a pleasant piano being played, like the rhythm of the waters in beaches, like a sweat poem and all. Close inspection in the rhythm of the water, their spilling will reveal that there is something pure in it, something very spiritual in it. In that sense, spirituality is devoid of any violence, mostly mental violence. But, is it the same as the romanticism? No, romanticism is where you enjoying the earthly materials or earthly feelings full of desire that keeps you more strangled in mayachakra.

Invisible Strings

It has been a long time we are apart

Its years we have not met

yet the world has not fallen apart

life is flowing as always did

still i feel my heart connected to yours

through some undetectable strings

through the beats of mine and yours

amidst so much separation that separates us

i feel you feel the same way i do often

so much time has elapsed

memories have also faded

yet feelings has remained

that pops out every now and den

Wandering in the streets of Mountain View

Weird but strange ideas come into my mind when I am alone. Such an idea came on the first day of my visit in California, it is to roam around the lonely streets with my naked eyes. So, I wore my shoes and took my bag with a camera inside and descended into the road in my favorite jeans. 

As soon as I stepped into the road from my hotel alleys, I found myself the only pedestrian. Sometime, the known facts when faced in reality turns out to be an wondering one, it was one of those rarest feelings I had. Slowly I moved across the street and kept walking. 

Walking down the road, several things i noticed, first of which is the cleanliness of the roads, and more precisely everywhere. There were dozens of BMWs roaring in speed and found few Ferraris as well and not to mention the bikes I believed existed only in national geographic channel. 

After a long walk, I found a beautiful park on the other side of the road. It was little crowded with people of varying ages. I took a stroll inside the park and felt a cold breeze in the air with a smell of ultimate leisure. It was so full of greens and quietness, yet filled with human activities. Few guys playing volleyball in the corner, a little babe playing with her mom, a couple of aged persons taking an afternoon walk, everything was happening yet so quietly.

On the way towards the exit of the park, I noticed an interesting thing. A young kid was being trained soccer. The trainer took an interesting learning lesson of the kid, he was only letting the kid to kick the ball after the kid completes doing a certain warmup exercise once and it goes in cycle. The kid was always excited to the exercise as it lets him kick the ball at the end, while in turn trainer made sure the kid increases his stamina by following the exercise multiple times. The lesson seemed extremely practical to me as in real life also you get a chance to make your kick  only after you prove yourself through struggles that is always not so interesting to have, but those struggles let you learn the fundamental part of the entire game.

My Visit to the Google Headquarters

My Stay in Mountain View, California

Its long since I used to write blogs once in a month. Now, I am working in Google, Bangalore and I was asked to visit the headquarters for a couple of weeks and guess what! We got emirates business class tickets to mountain view \m/ Cool!!!

Anyways, after fighting for getting gCard and eventually giving up, the auspicious day came in when I boarded my first international flight. It went through Dubai connection. When I landed in san francisco it turned out to be costly, hostile and unfriendly to me. All the way from commute, hotel to food, everything were going against me. But, soon one by one things got settled and issues were resolved. Thanks to my teammate, Neha and her family, I found things in place and started enjoying my stay. Neha rented a car and picked me from my hotel to see the awesome Google campus. Awestruck! The campus is so huge man, for the first time I felt the gigantic presence of this company in the physical world.